Till today, this is still one of my hardest practices due my habituation to always want to be right, but each time when this thought arises, at least I catch myself and apply this teaching the the fullest extend that I am capable of for now.
Ain't it hard!
Ain't it hard indeed!
From where I am at in my practice, and when facing conflicting situations, I have improved in the sense that I do not engage in actions that make me win in the eye of my "opponent". I don't do that anymore.
But INSIDE, INSIDE, I can say it is a real mess of anger and frustration fueled further by my "non-retaliation action".
What I am saying is that from the outside it must be that I look different now than how I looked a few years ago because a few people told me that they know few people that have the patience that I have, they told me I became much calmer, but they don't see inside my mind the huge monster that I keep in chains and muted, trying to tame it.