Hello Dharma brothers and sisters,
I have a very deep felt desire to take the next step toward an initiation into the practice of Dorje Shugden. I have taken refuge, as well as vows, within the Geluk lineage, and have commited myself to uphold the Teachings as explained by my Lama, Geshe Tsultrim Gyeltsen. However, I have not lived close to my Teacher or any other teacher for over two years. My heart aches for a deeper connection with this Holy Protector, yet I seem to lack the conditions to bring this about in a formal way. What is said about those who lack the proper initiation but want to practice anyway? Am I just wasting my time? I pray with devotion, and feel drawn to him many times throughout the day, yet always wonder how much benefit that I may be missing without the initiation. I would love to hear any advice from any who have considered this situation. Is there any others out there who practice without the formal initiation?
Your friend in Dharma,
Tenzin Sungrab