Dondrub, I cannot remember when it began, but it certainly was not in this life. Dorje Shugden and his retinue have layed siege to my fortress of self for a very long time. Within the fortress, even after all this time, we are stubborn Masters of the 8 worldly concerns, and with a strong will live life contradicting the Dharma, but some of our inhabitants have been hard put to it, and our defenses have been growing weaker and weaker so that now the Protectors retinue has infiltrated the fort and have been causing much damage from within. The consequences of this harmful oppression is that I have no choice but to submit more and more often to the Protectors will and use everything as fuel for realization. We still try to keep the Protector out so we can act however we please, but we just don't have strong enough forces anymore. Our Commander recently said at a council that it is very likely the fortress will be completely overtaken very soon and this relentless Protector Dorje Shugden will destroy everything, even the seeds of mistaken awareness we've planted.