This is such a wonderful post to read.
Thank you for your valuable thoughts and comments, Diamond Girl and DSILUVU.
Degeneration in my Dharma Practice is my greatest fear. But even I recognise that my fear of it is not great enough for me to really pull myself together and just go full steam ahead like all the great Lamas that we all have the good fortune to read about and meet. No matter what hardships and adversity they go through, they do not degenerate. But instead, they practice even more.
My Guru often says that it is because we really have no idea how Karma really works. Therefore, it does not scare us enough to be deathly afraid and we will all want to take ordination vows immediately. We do not see how we are causing ourselves to be reborn in lower realms and etc. We do not grasp the gravity of our situation. Hence, we will slack, slip, fall, rise and go back a few steps, etc.
Degeneration seems to accompany our path every now and then.
However, if we are determined, then we will find that with every fall, we leap further and we will keep moving forward. It is all about conviction and perseverance. We must believe that our only end to suffering is enlightenment and without getting there asap, we are running into the risk of degeneration at any point in time, despite how long and far ahead we are in our path.
That is really the scariest part.