Dear Dsiluvu
I have read Music Delighting Oceans of Protector word per word, and I am very familiar with the phrases that you quote above. As you said, in my darkest hour, it helped me to move on. These explanations have also helped me to keep faith in HHDL and DS.
What I have tried to do with the whole DS issue is to disect from every angle, the role of the CTA, the monasteries, the people who ban Shugdenpas into their stores, houses, places. It is easy to blame the CTA, the monasteries or the people who carry out the discrimination. But it seems to me, it always come back where all the problems started. It was all started when HHDL implemented the ban based on contradictory and incorrect premises about DS.
When we tried to find several historical analogies. For example:
• The 3rd Reich had done many bad things to the Jewish. But when historians looked at the events, it is all come down to Hitler’s delusional view that Aryan race is superior and how with his charisma he influenced many Germans to follow him. Thus, Hitler is the root of the problem.
• Spanish Inquisition - The same applies with Isabella of Castile and Ferdinand of Aragon. They are the one of unleashed the inquisition against the Jews and Muslims.
• Tudor Protestant Burning – Bloody Mary is the root of the problem because of her wrong view.
• And many other historical references
Everytime I read historical accounts of an event, it is always the leaders who bore the responsibilities. If they did not do what they did (i.e., instilling views, doubts, giving orders, etc.) the disaster would not have happened. But in the case of Dorje Shugden ban, most of us agree that the ban has caused a lot of sufferings and it is based on incorrect premises. However, we all believe, I am included, that HHDL is an enlightened being and must have his own reason(s) to establish these contradictory premises to justify his ban. Sometimes, I feel that I am not being fair here and I have been applying double standards in evaluating these events against other “similar” events in the past. This has been the thought that bother me the most.
The fact that most people in this forum shift the blame to CTA, monastery administrators, or non-Shugdenpas that carry out the ban is (I think) mainly because they respect and have faith in HHDL or just plain scared to say the obvious or just because it has been the forum rules for us not to say negative things about HHDL. I also do not want to disparage HHDL, and I have no doubt that he is an enlightened being. It makes me happy just to see his pictures, his face, or read his books that usually hailed investigation, reasoning and promote compassions towards all beings.
In light of this situation, CTA and monastic communities that ban DS practice and expel Shugden practitioners became our easy targets or scapegoats. They bore the blame and the implication of our frustrations, although what they do is only carrying out their Lama’s advice in this case HHDL. I feel that in this case, there is not much different between them and me. I also carry out DS practice because I have faith in my Lama and this faith is strengthened with further research on DS. Thus, just as much as I believe in DS, I also believe in HHDL’s good will towards sentient beings. Thus, if there is not much difference between them and me, why should they bear the blame for the whole situation?
However, I do not doubt about CTA potentials to provide security and abolish faith based discrimination among Tibetan in exile. Especially now that they have the political mandate to do this - with HHDL's resignation from his political roles.
That is the reason that I post this tricky question whether having faith = Believing?