Dear John Mitchell,
I am truly sorry that you had to undergo such trials in your life. I also know, being myself an old practitioner, that there are in our lives, as the solitaries know it too well, long periods of "desert" in our hearts, when it seems that the practice doesn't help, when we have doubts about everything, even the possibility of liberation for ourselves, let alone for others. As I see that yourself also are an old practitioner, older than me, I respectfully rejoice in all your precious efforts, from my heart. If I said something playful in the Guestbook, that might've hurt you, please understand that we are here under the strain of seeing a very tragic situation develop and that we don't have the hearts to abandon our brother monks in India, so we are a little jumpy, sorry.
You think we should not do anything, it is your right to think that. But we feel and think otherwise. I beg you, humbly, really with the softest mind that sometimes I can have because my holy Protector is helping me with that, I beg you, could we leave aside theoretical discussions until this situation is in some way resolved? Could you leave us to our endeavors --or join us-- because we are really trying to focus and yes, it is difficult with the type of messages you have been sending.
I concede that Rinpoche might have said something of the sort about not allowing DSh to control us. Rinpoche knew our minds and knew that we could try to obtain mundane objects, more and more, from the kindness of our Protector. So it seems evident that he was referring to the Dorje Shugden of our mind, the one we create with our own desires, fears, the usual mixture of pure and impure aims. If you agree with us that His Holiness Dorje Shugden is an emanated Buddha, born from the great compassion and wisdom of Manjushri Yamantaka, then you will agree that nobody could refer to him as being one that is suitable to control. Another thing is that many times people thing "HE" is coming in the trance, and it's someone of the korlo, i.e., not necesarily an enlightened person, of course (although always wonderfully, faithfully under oath to Venerable Dulzin).
So, dearest John, be welcome among us, but please, please, leave us some space, some peace of mind for our feeble minds, to be able to try and do something about the very bad situation of our monks in India.
We will have time to discuss later all the matters, every one of them, that you are bringing here, and of course they are worth discussing, no doubt. But later.
With much love and consideration,
a Friend