Dear JSPITANGA,
You are free to speak as you will, and considering the circumstances I understand how the actions of others can bend us out of shape, but I would like to comment on your continual reference - here and elsewhere - to the Dalai Lama with derogatory terms such as "evil dalai".
If we are genuinely interested in accomplishing realizations, we should know that the only appropriate minds to generate towards others are those contained in Sutra or Tantra. Seriously, this is no laughing matter to be brushed aside. If a supposed "practitioner" of the holy Dharma does not have respect for the Dalai Lama as a holy being, then what is the next option? He is our kind Mother unceasingly tormented by the three sufferings, and we should have love and compassion for him, especially for the heavy negative karma he is creating if he isn't in fact an emanation of Dorje Shugden himself. There are a vast number of realizations that the ban and the Dalai Lama and his supporters should be causing to arise within our minds. If it is not, if you do not feel fierce renunciation, love, patience, compassion, bodhichitta, strong effort to concentrate on emptiness and the two tantric stages, my gosh, we have certainly missed the point entirely!
Our speech is mind and inner wind. It has power. In fact, if you examine closely over time after reflecting on teachings about the two truths, you will understand how our speech is creating our reality.
Bottom line, if the Dalai Lama is not a holy being for you, then understand how living beings are not their delusions, but are being tormented by their inner enemies. Everyone has a heart of gold and is worthy of our respect, and that includes not speaking in a slanderous manner, name calling, or belittling the beautiful being that they are, our precious kind mother giving us fuel for realization. Such kindness is begging you to deepen your inner experience!
The meaning of life is realization. Please be careful about the reality you create for yourself.